Well AF showed today. That was a good morning present :(
I took a digital test last night and it said "Not Pregnant". I was using progesterone and B6 and got to around 12dop so I guess that is good, but not great. I was hoping the progesterone would hold it off until next week and I was going to stop taking it next weekend but I guess it is only so strong. At least that puts us a week sooner back into TTC for this month I guess.
On to August/September
I will be Better
There are women that become mothers without effort, without thought, without patience or loss and though they are good mothers and love their children, I know that I will be better.
I will not be better because of genetics, or money, or because I have read more books, but because I have struggled and toiled for this child. I have longed and waited. I have cried and prayed. I have endured and planned over and over again. Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have to struggle to attain their dreams. I will notice everything about my child. I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore, and discover. I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life. I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of a child, knowing I can comfort, hold and feed him, and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot, or cry tears of a broken dream. My dream will be crying for me.
I count myself lucky in a sense; that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child that my friends will not see. Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that God leads me to, I will not be careless with my love. I will be a better mother for all that I have endured. I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, friend and sister because I have known pain. I know disillusionment as I have been betrayed by my own body. I have been tried by fire and hell many never face, yet given time, I stood tall. I have prevailed. I have succeeded. I have won. So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself from discomfort. I see it, I mourn it, and join them in theirs. I listen. And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely. I have learned the immense power of another hand holding tight to mine, of other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth and when life is beyond hard. I have learned a compassion that only comes with walking in those shoes. I have learned to appreciate life.
Yes, I will be a wonderful mother.
~Anonymous
There are women that become mothers without effort, without thought, without patience or loss and though they are good mothers and love their children, I know that I will be better.
I will not be better because of genetics, or money, or because I have read more books, but because I have struggled and toiled for this child. I have longed and waited. I have cried and prayed. I have endured and planned over and over again. Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have to struggle to attain their dreams. I will notice everything about my child. I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore, and discover. I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life. I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of a child, knowing I can comfort, hold and feed him, and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot, or cry tears of a broken dream. My dream will be crying for me.
I count myself lucky in a sense; that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child that my friends will not see. Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that God leads me to, I will not be careless with my love. I will be a better mother for all that I have endured. I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, friend and sister because I have known pain. I know disillusionment as I have been betrayed by my own body. I have been tried by fire and hell many never face, yet given time, I stood tall. I have prevailed. I have succeeded. I have won. So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself from discomfort. I see it, I mourn it, and join them in theirs. I listen. And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely. I have learned the immense power of another hand holding tight to mine, of other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth and when life is beyond hard. I have learned a compassion that only comes with walking in those shoes. I have learned to appreciate life.
Yes, I will be a wonderful mother.
~Anonymous
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My Readings
Cheri
They show a GIRL and they link her to SEPTEMBER so this is either birth month, conceive month or the month you find out in. They tell me the 16-23rd so not sure if your set to ovulate or test during that time?
SEPT and BOY so this is either birth month, conceive month or the month you find out in
they show me OCTOBER and GIRL so this is either birth month, conceive month or the month you find out in
From Oct 2009 reading
Roxy
Brandie, I am seeing the month of May and Boy for you. Remember this can be birth, conceive or BFP month.
Jenny
Your reading reveals that your BFP news comes the month of July from a cycle that begins in June. The baby shows as a boy and his EDD/birth date is referenced the month of April 2010 - specific reference to the 2nd and 8th
They show a GIRL and they link her to SEPTEMBER so this is either birth month, conceive month or the month you find out in. They tell me the 16-23rd so not sure if your set to ovulate or test during that time?
SEPT and BOY so this is either birth month, conceive month or the month you find out in
they show me OCTOBER and GIRL so this is either birth month, conceive month or the month you find out in
From Oct 2009 reading
Roxy
Brandie, I am seeing the month of May and Boy for you. Remember this can be birth, conceive or BFP month.
Jenny
Your reading reveals that your BFP news comes the month of July from a cycle that begins in June. The baby shows as a boy and his EDD/birth date is referenced the month of April 2010 - specific reference to the 2nd and 8th
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